Moved on.

Fell in Love.
So I thought.
He wasn't what was to be expected.
So now I've moved on.
I bounce back. :>

Every new beginning comes from some others beginnings end.

LOVE

I am so in love.. that is all.

Waiting

Say Somethin!

I have decided that the next time Miss Arika says.. one more damned thing.. does one more fucking thing causing drama... I am just going to go have a little chit chat with her. :)
I have been waiting three damned years to beat her ass. I may be nice enough to give her a warning. Tell Aaron he better keep her ass in line because I am done with the drama. And I am done holding back.
So pleasssssssssssseee little girl. MAKE MY DAY! If she does one more thing. I am giving the warning. And it will be her last warning. Since she can not man up and say anything to my face or back up her shit talk. I guess I will have to be the one to initiate this. I want it to be done and over. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU NASTY DIRTY FUCKING SLUT!!!!!! Or I will make you. Because I don't talk shit. I can back my words up.

Love Lies.

Yeah.. I miss the old times. Yes, I miss what we used to be. But you were not healthy for me. I wish you the best. Even if you hate me. I would much rather prefer you hate me than dwell in pain without me.

Well anyways. I am thinking medication. Doctors prescribed... My mother suggested it. I hate Doctors, so I will most likely not pursue this. I have come to notice I have horrible taste in men. Seems I go after all of the ones that treat me like shit. I allow this. Therefore I should not be complaining.
Dan came over last night.. It was really fucking weird. Nicholas and David both said that they didn't like the way he kept staring at me. I don't completely trust him. I felt like he was interrogating me for information so he can run back and tell Aaron. Of coarse I told him a few fibs about myself. I told him I smoked weed all the time. All day everyday. Why not? Just because I don't doesn't mean it isn't funny. Aaron is running around telling a bunch of lies about me that aren't even close to true.
I don't understand Aaron. He is so judgmental. Sometimes I wonder if he has the mental compasity of a teenager, I wonder if he believes his own lies?

I DID NOT have to give him his DND papers back. You think the guy would be greatful? I was trying to do the right thing. I dropped them off at random. He wasn't there. I got lucky. I DID NOT WATCH HIS HOUSE... As he claims. Sorry sweetie you aren't that special. I work 9 hours a day.. everyday.. when I get off work I am tired.. When the hell would I be able to make time to watch your house? Now that is just silly.
Does he get off making up these lies about me? I think he just does that to make himself feel better.. Maybe hurt less?

No. I know Aaron. He will say how much he hates me... how horrible of a person I am.. only to try and convince himself that it is true. He still loves me. He will always love me. Three years is a hard thing to forget. It just depresses me that he downgraded and went back with Arika. He can do so much better than that trash. She is going to tear his heart out. And he is going to let her.
I have come to realize after I left Aaron... It completely changed me. It's like I am the old me wrapped in a completely new one. If that makes any sense at all.
I am nicer...to everyone.

I let people walk all over me and take advantage... I do miss Aaron a lot though. My mind goes back to that a lot but I just tell myself that it's for the best. I just can't believe him. I have not done anything wrong... but leave. Can he not handle someone walking out of his life? He really is going to stoop so low as to believe hearsay?

I think I am going to change all my account passwords again. Just to be cautious. I really have nothing to hide. I think I just will change them so Michelle can't use them anymore.
I miss the old times. The late nights. The BK runs. WoW. (Which depresses me dearly how much hard work I put into that game and I can not even have my account)
Anime. Colton. Riley. My bed. My garage. My Aaron. I guess I can no longer claim him huh? lol

Well that is fine with me. Funny how much of a better person I am than her.
:) I will always love Aaron and he will always have that little place in his heart for me. I am still naming my children the names we discussed. I just wish I had my damned notebook with all of MY character names. I would never stoop to Arikas level and talk to Aaron while he is with her. Even though she does NOT deserve that luxury that I didn't have... I am an adult. And the bigger person.

I need a shower. But my bed is so comfy.. lol.

Mac Donalds!

Ace is bringing me Mcdonalds. I haven't really eatin much today. My eating habits aren't the best. I am just to busy to eat.
New tattoo= amazing.
New Car= Epic
New Hair= :)
New Boy= <3
New Friends= (:
New Job= ;)
New Place.. and I am loving it.

New Life. Yep I am doing fine without you.

Falling

I am falling.
This is going to hurt.
Bad ending.. waiting for me.
I know.

But I can't seem to hang on to anything to stop my fall.
Damn it.

( I love how I can write silly things that are so random and only make sense to me )