Exotica

I have always loved flowers.. but I don't really think I have a favorite type of Flower like most women do.
I am beginning to like purple lilacs though. The smell reminds me of my grandmother.
If there were any other flowers I think I would be fond of.. I think it would be anything exotic.
I think any girl loves getting flowers.. but they are all so expensive.. and they just die anyways.
I would prefer something that last longer.. Something I can cherish and hold onto.

But then again I think a kiss is a perfect gift... and that is just a memory isn't it? And getting flowers is also a fond memory one can hold onto isnt it? Well I guess I can't say I don't like getting flowers. That would be a lie.

I would love to be exotic like a delicate flower. :) But sadly, I dont think I could pull off the exotic look.

Lets Be Honest

Lets Be Honest.

ONE- I am 20 years old and I feel like I should be a bit more excited for my 21st.


"I am internet Stalked"

TWO- I have had 1,296 Pageviews on my myspace.. and it is a new account. All of my videos on youtube have been getting insane amounts of views. (For me.. It's alot) And it doesnt even really bother me. I think it is funny. Because I know of at least one person that is obsessed with me.

Which leads me to my next thing.

THREE -There is a girl that for some odd reason makes herself come off like she WANTS TO BE ME. She copies my hair.. Does what I do. Ect. (You know the whole stalker thing) And honestly that doesnt bother me either. I am flattered.


FOUR- I don't really trust anyone anymore. I have some friends I have always wondered about, but I don't think I really wanted to believe that they were untrustworthy... And if they don't get it by now that I am talking about them.. then... wow.

FIVE- I hate that I am an adult and by law I am held responsible for my own actions. I hated it when I turned 18. And I hate it now. I would give anything to be 16 again.

SIX- I like to fight. It's my dirty secret. Even if I can't win.. I love the rush.

SEVEN- I couldn't and still can't hit someone I care about. I have to really dislike the person to get in an actual physical fight with them.

EIGHT- I love to wrestle... but I'm always scared I will get to rough.

NINE- I fall in love with anime characters, and characters from books and movies.

TEN- Harsh words from loved ones still affect me, but when people I don't really care about talk badly of me.. It doesnt bother me at all.

I Procrasinate.

Last night I barely slept at all. I stayed up later than I usually do, talking to a really good friend, and Aaron was playing Left 4 Dead with Mike until almost 2 in the morning. I said my goodnights to my friend at probally one in the morning. I was so tired and ready for bed and both Mike and Aaron were sprawled out on the bed and I couldnt lay down.

I asked nicely if they could just finnish up their game.. and maybe just do one more. It just took longer than I expected to finnish their game. Then when I finally went to lay down.. It probally took me an hour to finally fall asleep.

I probally went to sleep around 3am. And I got up at around 8:30. Which is good because I got to get a shower and everything before the guys woke up. They have to go to martial arts today and be there at 11:30. I need to get the dishes done so I will probally stay home...maybe.. I don't know yet.. Depends on how much I procrasinate, which will probally be alot.