Headache :(

I have a headache from hell.. Aarons at work && I'm really thinking about just laying back down. I haven't blogged forever so I thought I would rant a bit. I have been sick for the last three days. Friday is my dads birthday. Sheila && I were going to bake him his favorite cake, German Chocolate. I can't get ahold of anyone in my family so once again they are ignoring me. My sister is being a bitch again. She gets pissed that I can't go see her without Aaron by my side and says he is too controlling. I'm just so tired of everyone constanly trying to run my life for me. I am a grown independent woman I can make decisions on my own. Whether that be who I choose to be with, what I do with my life, Or just what I want to fucking eat for gods sake.

I guess Friday I bake the cake... sign the card... && if they aren't home leave it on the porch. Mom said that Dad had the weekend of his birthday off... but I'm sure they "WON'T BE HOME."

This shit is so petty and childish.. Maybe I would come around a lot more often if everyone would get their heads out of their ass and accept each other.

Maybe I should pray more... Then again... even God won't sway opinions. Am I in the wrong? Seems like to everyone else I am... No matter what I do.. where I'm at I'm always fucking up in their eyes...

JOY! Imagine the wedding!

True Happiness Is just a Fucking Illusion.