Well plans today with my parents got canceled. Im pretty sure they made up some bullshit excuse, but despite my letdown and small bit of depression tonight has made a surprising turn for the better. I was just sitting outside talking to Sheila about everything and some random things and we got on the subject about me and Aarons future.
Aaron has been talking about starting a family alot lately. We were at Trevors for bible study Monday night and Aaron told them how much he wanted what they had. A happy marriage and kids. I guess he also told Sheila he wanted THE LEAST three kids. And how he would marry me now and start a family if he had a better job and we could afford it. Hearing this I couldn't wipe the smile from my face. I got butterflies again. Which I have to say I haven't felt butterflies like this in a long time. I mean I still get them occasionally, but this litterly makes me so happy my heart hurts. I know it sounds silly and mushy to say, but I really am having chest pains because of it. Nothing really painful, I just kind of feel like I am on a cloud.
Aaron and I have discussed all of this before. When we first got together he was saying how he NEVER wanted kids. I told him if he didnt want kids we wouldnt last long and we had no future. Because thats something I really want one day. I want to have kids when I am still young. So if I got pregnate now. I can honestly say I would be estatic.
Tonight we are going to have a movie night away from computers and video games. We havent done that in a long time. I really just want to cuddle him all over and love on him right now. Ever since he has been getting saved and reading the bible more and such he is turning back into the man I fell in love with BUT EVEN BETTER. Maybe I am just in a good mood. But I kind of feel like I am falling in love with him all over again
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