I have noticed something. I have hardly any self confidence anymore. I may just be feeling down in the dumps right now but if I made a Pros and Cons list about myself.. The Cons would rival the Pros by alot.
I was looking through my photos and I noticed I have no pictures of myself without makeup. All though I have a lot of pictures I dont like hardly any of them. I have been talking to alot of people I used to go to school with. Some of the people I really didn't even converse with much in the past, I am talking to alot now. I'm getting to know alot of people I never even thought of myself talking to much, or maybe better put, I never thought they wanted to talk to me very much.
I'm noticing something though. Everyone has changed so much. I know there is a very noticable change in myself. I'm not as energetic. I'm more laid back.
I look back on how I used to be and I am kind of glad for the change. I serperate myself from the drama aside from putting myself in the middle. I care alot less of what people think of me. I am not as timid when it comes to confrontations, but also I completly close myself off from society. I rarely go out. I hardly talk to anyone. I am no longer as physical as I used to be. Therefore I am no longer anorexic skinny like I used to be.
Alot of people have shockingly said that they like the new me better than the old me. I can see why, I was hyper active and annoying. I was the girl that would be anyones friend and trusted to easily.
The only downfall to change is sometimes I don't know who I am anymore.
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