Nervous Wreck

I am clutsing out. I am jittery and nervous. I am dropping everything and I cant sit still. Why? All because Aaron and I are going to my parents after he gets off of work. I am desperatly trying to look my best, make sure my make up hair and clothes are perfect. Once again, why?

Because I am trying to impress my parents. I wish I was more like my sisters. They can just say what they think and not care if it is family or who it is. I have a bad feeling it is going to get canceled. I dont know why. Aaron said he would go and act like an angel. Even if he knows they are being fake to him. He is doing this for me.

Mom was saying how she had to work on dad so damn hard just so Aaron can come over. Which is a load of crap, because she also was saying he couldnt come over. But I am not going to say anything to avoid the drama.

Also mom and dad said they were sharing a cell phone and mom no longer had one. Then at the end of our conversation on myspace she said she had to go because my dad usually texts or calls her around that time on his break. Once again I did not say anything to avoid the drama. I don't need to hear another lie from the people I think so much of.

I shouldn't be this nervous just to go over to my parents house. I am going to end up making myself sick by the end of the day, before Aaron even gets home. What sucks most is I only have one more cigerette left until Sheila gets home at 2:30 or 3:00. Its 11:10 now.

And to top that off on the way to Portland I can't smoke in the car anymore because it bothers Aaron. I'm hoping Aaron stays in a good mood and doesn't make things worse. We both hate going to Portland because of the bad memories, then every time we pass through Aaron gets in a really bad mood.. I really hope he doesnt do that today.. I cant take that right now.